(…Most of the checking in and posting from work isn’t supposed to be allowed, since we’re not supposed to be on or phones at all. They’re incredibly relaxed about it for us overnight workers, though, because they… somewhat… understand how hard being nocturnal is.

…’Somewhat’ in that they probably don’t know how much it affects people who’s main connection to people is through the internet.

I know I chose to be overnight, but there were reasons for that. Biggest being that there would be less customers and people to have to interact with. I’m not the best at social communication, and while a casual conversation is fine (if they don’t mind me not being the best at it, since I just really don’t talk much), but random people constantly coming up or expecting me to know things I might not isn’t something I can handle much of. I’ve also just always been more active at night in general.

…So, yes, I have a social anxiety. I’m an introvert. I didn’t need something that throws me with a ton of people to talk to.

What happens when I get my first job? They put me in the largest section that no one cares about, that requires quite a bit of maintenance, and also put me in charge of answering the f-ing phone and making announcements over the intercom. I don’t even answer my own phone, unless I know who’s calling/am expecting it. Thanks a lot. If I don’t have something to distract me, I frequently started getting stressed and frustrated, unable to calm down until four hours in, at lunch break when I can go home and spend a lot of time somewhere more comfortable and quiet.

The biggest problem to my phone use, however is because, I don’t have a ‘normal’ life. I’ve moved twice, and I’m not the best at connecting with people, so I have very, very few friends in RL. Currently one that I might could call up to ask to hang out with, maybe. If I didn’t need sleep and she didn’t have her own job to do during the day.

So everything I have is online. But even then, time interferes with when I can actually do anything with people. No matter how hard I might try and schedule, most activity takes place well within my sleep time. So I try and hold on to as much time as I can, which is why I end up on my phone at work.

…But how the hell can I try explaining any of that to the managers? Should I even try? Because I don’t even know if they’d care about that, or just see it as me making excuses.

…I kinda just wish they’d fire me, instead of making me scared to even speak up about anything. My apathy is one thing I half-shared with Spider. I care more about staying connected and emotionally stable than a retail job that I only applied for because my parents said I’d have to get one if I chose to stop what I had been going to college for. Which had taken a lot of thought already, and was a big decision, but the career I’d gone in for required a lot of dedication and interest, which I’d lost after two years of studying it. And I even broke down crying when I said needed to drop out. I’ve already been through enough emotional stress regarding decisions, and my current job wasn’t one of them. It’s a necessity, given the terms my parents gave, but everything’s just gotten worse and worse the longer I’ve been working, and my phone helps with it. …Until I get caught and then stressed because they talk with me about it, usually in groups of two.

…Sorry, I’m just really more freaking out right now because every time they catch me on it, I get terrified they’ll actually take it away the rest of the night. And it’s not like I’ve ever been diagnosed for anything or have enough behind me other than too much thinking to explain why I have obsessive behaviour regarding why I’m on the phone. I wan to say something, but it really will probably sound like an excuse. …Though I will say, they know I’m (mostly) honest. When they asked if they’d see me on it again, I didn’t say no. It’d be a straight up lie, and I knew it. So I said ‘I don’t know’. Because it’s true, I don’t. People are asleep by now, so I’m not on it as often, if at all.

…But I just really don’t know what to do…)

shadowchildkaito replied to your post:(Umm… so I downloaded Pokemon Rumble World and…

((I had one of the Mystery Dungeon games and loved it. Loving the first Ranger game but am stuck at this one point. And am semi-addicted to Shuffle because I’m a sucker for those kinds of games.))

(Of the spin-offs, the Mystery Dungeon games have been my favourite, though the newest one wasn’t quite as good as it’s predecessors… Still good on it’s own, but I have some issues against it because I played the first two generations of the series. All the Ranger games are great, if a bit challenging to actually get every Pokemon available. (But then, what Pokemon game makes that easy?) Pokepark isn’t as accessible, since it’s a Wii thing, but they were nice, especially the second where you could switch between Pikachu and the Unova starters. My brother got the first Rumble game downloaded, but I was the one who played it more, and then got the others aside from Rumble U. I think my reason for enjoying them is pure collection purposes, because it really is my favourite part of Pokemon as a whole. Getting all the Pokemon. The puzzle games are good ways of wasting away time, and I don’t hate them, but I don’t get addicted to them either.

I think I like most of the spin-off because they don’t focus as much on battle. The main games are still fun, but a lot more pressure has been put on people to really train their Pokemon in specific ways if they hope to have any fun outside of the story. Not completely, it’s easy to ignore, but I remember when it really was just ‘train your Pokemon to a high level, teach them good attacks, make a balanced team’. It was simpler, and I could actually fight decently then. I don’t really want to do all the things people tend to to battle each other now, so focus goes to getting the Pokemon, and the more adventure and collection focused spin-offs catch my interest so much.

…Also not having to worry too much about levels and grinding to continue, that helped too. With the spin-offs, if you have good enough skill, even if you were weaker than you should be, you can still win. Mystery Dungeon might be the only exception, but even then, they have all sort of items to help with a huge level difference. Know how to use them, and you can win anything… Especially in the second gen of them.)

Hi! I was reading your post earlier about Kaito’s motive being revenge, and while I agree, I’m almost certain he said at some point his motive was a little different nowadays and more widespread. I can’t for the life of me remember since I re-watched a lot yesterday, but does anything come to mind? It’s been bugging me all day! ;;

(Hmm… Well, originally, all he knew was that his father had been murdered and it had been made to look like an accident. Nothing else, really. Which was why the original motive was revenge on those who killed him, so he continued being Kid to draw them out. You say ‘watched’, and the anime makes it sound slightly different in all honesty, which I’ve said bugged me a bit before. Both versions didn’t mention revenge specifically, just finding out who killed him. Though… the specials did still make him sound angry, at least….

As far as the motive now… yeah, after he found out the reason Toichi was killed – interfering with a group of people looking for a specific gem – he shifted the focus more to stopping their goal specifically. Finding Pandora before they do and destroying it, hence why he largely only goes after large jewels. If he steals other things, it’s normally because he was either challenged or a specific reason comes up. If anything, it went from widespread to focused. In the anime, and in manga, though not focused on too much, would be when he helped out his mom sort problems out from her past. Stopping forgeries and such isn’t his overall motive, but it gave a side reason for why he wanted to interfere with those two from the Ryoma heist.

Or, ya know. If you want Kid’s completely original purpose, it was mostly to stand out so much as to put Phantom Lady out of everyone’s minds. From there, Toichi must’ve come across Snake and co at some point and gotten on their bad side. As I’ve said before, Toichi and Kaito’s motivations for becoming Kid were vastly different, so… *shrugs* Kaito’s is still revenge focused, though. Just does side jobs.

I hope that answers your question, going based on what I know and remember. The rest is just a bit of rambling. And ranting.

…It’s so easy to find faults with how A-1 is handling this…. they pushed all the major episodes out quickly to explain everything as soon as possible for those who needed to know. Full motive at episode two. Two. Two. And then all sorts of character introductions. None of Kaito having time to get used to being Kid even with all sorts of chaos going on around him, settling into his job. And it has him immediately going to stealing the gems, and needing to have reasons for Kaito to steal items that originally had nothing to do with them. At the start of being Kid, Kaito didn’t know why his father was killed, just that it had to do with Kid. Hence why he stole all sorts of things, from gold boxes, to paintings, to statues… And why the police didn’t immediately write him off when someone said they were Kid and would steal a baseball. He stole everything. Wasn’t until the whole Pandora explanation that he went to jewel focused thief most people recognise from Detective Conan.

…Not to mention handling the episodes like this throws a lot of things in the story off, and leaves some characters hanging for quite some time after their introduction so that they can go back and use the material they wanted to use from the earlier chapters. *looks sadly at tantei-san*

And for those who haven’t read the manga… a little perspective.

Aoko had her date with Kaito – meaning her dad suspected him of being Kid – in the fourth chapter of the manga.

Akako appeared in the sixth, and that was only the time she tried to feed him chocolate to make him a slave.

She appeared again in ten, which was when she’d decided to try killing him instead. As some have said, this makes more sense for the cool-down time from when she obviously liked Kid after the first meeting, and feelings of jealousy that he doesn’t even look at her to build up.

Hakuba appeared in chapter fifteen. (and for even more perspective, this is in volume three. Of a currently four volume series.) Then again the next chapter.

And then the next chapter, seventeen, he’s convinced Kaito, whom he’d barely interacted with at this point, is Kid. Who knows how long it’ll be before Hakuba shows up for this, but it’s obviously going to involve a longer passage of time than the detective originally needed. Which undermines Hakuba’s ability quite a bit, imo.

Everything regarding Pandora doesn’t come into play until after all of this in chapter nineteen. During all that time, Kaito was literally not making any apparent headway in finding his father’s killers, and not for lack of heists. Sure, plenty of chapters weren’t heists, but more because he had no leads. And manga Jii isn’t nearly so helpful in the manga as he is the anime. Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure he assists Kaito at times, but it’s never a focus. Much more like ‘the man who was dad’s friend who’s willing to help’ than ‘Batman Kaitou Kid’s Alfred’.

Can’t really get mad at the others, Black Star and Phantom Lady, since Black Star was a flashback anyway, and PL didn’t have to be at an exact place per se. Did make people (myself included) a little irritated they brought Conan in for Ryoma after the Phantom Lady. It’s chronological to the heists, yes, but they should have shown Kid meeting Conan for the actual Black Star heist from the Detective Conan series. Else people don’t necessarily know this weird kid and the detective in the helicopter from earlier are the same person….)

/End rant